In This Moment Now

In this moment now, I'm about to loose all my friends. They're going to leave to go and have the most amazing lives in Melbourne and Adelaide while I stay behind, burdened by financial issues, and study my dream course in the last place on earth I want to be. Sure, Mildura has had some bright spots, the biggest and brightest being a person I can rely on anytime, anywhere (you know who you are). But now my bright spots are all leaving and I'm going to have to find some news ones. I'm not good at finding new bright spots, I don't know how. Right now, I'm looking down a long tunnel and I can't see any light at the end of it. So, maybe tonight the night.

If it is, I love you all.

Run Run Run

I manipulated the photos below as a kind of expressive art. The first two represent how I feel when, sometimes, I just want to run away from myself and the third is a representation of the feeling I get that my childhood dreams, dreams I don't want anymore, are chasing me because they're frightened they'll disappear.

Grieving Angels

I Am An Angel

I am an angel, I can cry too,

As if I was human, just like you.

I'll cry at your funeral,

I'll weep at your grave.

I'll wait for centuries, 

Until your soul is saved.

I am an angel, I can mourn too,

I mourn little children when their lives are through.

I stand at their graves,

And cry to the sky:

'God, if you loved them,

Why let them die?'

I am an angel, I can cry too

I'll weep until paradise comes and all mourning in through.

These two angel pictures go with the poem above, the picture below is for a campaign I want to get involved in called 'Australian Children Against Sexual Abuse'.

Op-shopping, Lunching and Spending Time with Friends

Well, I went out at eleven o 'cock this morning to go and do a 'little' shopping and then have lunch with two of my closest friends. Little did I know I would walk back in the door at around three o'clock in the afternoon with sore feet and feeling like I just had the best day of my life! I brought twenty-nine dollars worth of clothes from one op-shop, spent three dollars on presents in another op-shop for some very special people and spent a dollar on a stubby holder for my dad at yet another op-shop. After all the op-shopping was completed, we went to the Pizza Cafe and I ate WWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY too much entree before my main was brought out and could only stomach half of my main before I gave up on it. After lunch my friends and I swung by Kmart where I picked up a book and brought a bag of Sherbet Lemons (which the Harry Potter books made famous). On the way home I stopped off at dad's work to give him his stubby holder and then walked home. By the time I got in the door my feet were sore and I was desperate for a drink. Hence the reason I am sitting at my computer writing this blog post with a recently drained glass in front of me. Anyway, that was my day and it was great. I think I'll watch a little Supernatural now...

Rest in Peace and Safety, Katie

In Memory of my best friend Katie, who committed suicide on the 21st of April 2009.

Forever loved and forever missed.

You were the most special of all of God's gifts.

Rest in peace and safety my friend.